Disillusion

My love,
I am so glad that you are here.
You abandon her So that we can love each other
Forever...Look, I have lots of friends now!
Finally, I found the place
Where I truly belong.
This is the world
Where fantasy collides with reality...In this world
No one owns you
But me alone and only me.
I don't have to be lonely
Because I have everyone beside me.
I can see the young me
So happy and carefree
She is laughing so hard
And I can't see the pain
And I am so glad...Wait...what's happening?
My love, don't leave me!Don't go back to her side,
I thought we will love each other forever!
Don't go...please stay!
Where's everyone?
Why am I in this piercing solitude?
It's dark and cold
And I am all alone...Please help me...I'm so scared!
Young me please don't cry
Don't hide in the dark corner
Don't hate God for your lonely life.
You poor child
Please stop cutting your wrist!
Please don't leave me
In this kind of lonely place.
My heart is aching
Blood is flowing in my heart...
Take me out of this monochromatic world!
The painful reality
Is slowly pulling me out
Out of the fake reality
And this unbearable pain
Start to climb all over my body...I wish you are mine forever...

Masa Kat Kolej

PUDAR SATU NAMA

PUDARNYA SATU NAMA

Tiada bicara
Tiada kata-kata
Terurai sudah patri janji
Manis madah senyum tawa persona
Terpadam satu dunia dari lubuk jiwa
Manakan bisa
Mana lautan bara
Kecundang jua satria penglipur lara
Hanya mimpi mungkinkan tinggal mimpi
Yang pasti aku sendiri
Tetap begini
Rasa cinta ku pada mu
Hanya Tuhan yang tahu
Yang ku rindu hanya satu
Hangat sentuhan mu
Makin kelam detik dulu
Makin membuka ruang-ruang luka ku
Mana janji mana rindu mu
Tinggal aku
Pudar segala
Pudarnya satu nama
Aku berpaling moga kan berbahagia
Moga Tuhan merestui segala
Takkan ku sesal
Takkan ku sesal
Takkan ku kesal
Tiada..Rasa cinta ku pada mu
Hanya Tuhan yang tahu
Yang ku rindu hanya satu
Hangat sentuhan mu
Makin kelam detik itu
Makin membuka ruang-ruang luka ku
Mana janji mana rindu mu
Tinggal aku
Rasa cinta ku pada mu
Hanya Tuhan yang tahu
Yang ku rindu hanya satu
Hangat sentuhan mu
Makin kelam detik dulu
Makin membuka ruang-ruang luka ku
Mana janji mana rindu mu
Tinggal aku

My Friends

(",)

But a Nightmare

Life without you is not life
but a nightmare
A nightmare that eats
my skin little by little
A nightmare that pricks
my soul until I feel no more
Life is not life, without you

What makes me angry?

That spark i have for you, that smile you put on my face I never expected this to happen in the first place But i hate it when if i don't speak to you, i end up missing you, craving for that warmth you give me when you smile. Why did i complicated things? why do i hate you so much yet i love you deeplyYou can be everything to a person, but blink, and they'll be gone from your life. You were there, i blinked, you walked away with another person.What makes me angry? your able to pull on my heart strings.

Love

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop.

Revengeful Misery

Thy misery grows deep
How can this be and nothing great
The hatred of thy soul is wider than believed
No coming out nor coming close
Hurt thy and thou shall die
Die within thy heart and mind
Hate thy and thou shall be hated
Kill thy confidence and thy'll kill thou heart
Destruction is bliss
Thy destruction is greater than thou hate
Spite thy and thou shall depart from life

Need you

Flowers need sunshine,
violets need dew,
all angels in heaven know I need u.
years may fly,
tears may dry,
but my friendship with u will never die.

Friends Eternal

You're a true friend, that I want you to know,
Our love for each other has helped us to grow.
We've been through some tough times,
but we've made it through,
The only one I ever trusted was you.
You helped me through anger, you've chased away fears.
You held me through sadness, and kissed away tears.
You stayed by my side when the world turned away.
You helped me see joy when the skies were all gray.
You were the rainbowat the end of the storm.
You help me be different when I shouldn't conform.
You held my hand when you knew we would fall.
Every heartache, you saw me through it all.
I'm not sure I'm always the best friend to you,
I know I'm not perfect, but this much is true.
When life gets you down, And there's nowhere to turn,
I'll help you through and I'll share your concern.
I'll try my best to return every favor,
When you're sure that you'll drown,
then I'll be your lifesaver; Even if we both go down.
Whether we sink or swim doesn't matter at all,
Just know that I'll be therewhenever you call.
I'll pull you out when life pulls you under.
I'll be the sun when there's lightning and thunder.
And when it's all over, And we've fought every war,
There's one thing I promise, Of this I am sure,
When the time comes that we're put to our rest.
Be sure that you know that, My friend, you're the best.
And if there is Heaven, then I know you'll be there,
That if you die first then you'll hear every prayer.
And soon I'll join you, but just know until then.
That I'll miss you each day 'til I see you again.
At the end of the tunnel, you'll be my guiding light,
You'll lead me to heaven, away from the night.
We'll be there together, and we'll never grow old.
And we'll walk hand in hand On the streets paved of gold.